No Turning Back?

Had anyone ever thought of committing suicide once?

What did it felt like? Was it scary?

I'm so curious.

I know committing suicide is a sin.

But, I really want to know.

Did it felt like you were so hopeless already?

Feeling like wanting to choke yourself?

Did your heart hurt, thinking of others' response to your death?

I don't know, I'm not sure if I want to know or not but this curiosity is tugging around the ropes of my mind.

Did you have second thoughts, before wanting to commit suicide?

Did you have to wait, until no one is around you anymore?

Did you bother to give a damn about the world anymore?

Was it because of a life, that was too dull?

Too hard, for you to get a grip on?

Was anyone on your thoughts, before  and during that moment?

Did you really care,

Did you really love them?

Did they not care,

Did they not love you?

Were you already going to give up?

Did you not want to turn back,

Take a look behind,

Who claims for forgiveness?